Painful Shade Stop taunting me Go back to death Where you should be
Love has gone And planted seeds And with that rose Comes many needs To make it bloom To make it grow Constant maintenance You must show Or it will wilt And petals fall And to the ground Its stem will crawl
Painful Shade Stop taunting me Go back to death Where you should be
So this rose I let it die Though it was hard To say goodbye But now it seems It cannot stay Where it belongs So far away From tears and ashes It comes anew When its pain Should have been through
Painful Shade Stop taunting me Go back to death Where you should be
Though I try To cut it down It will not leave It will not drown And with this love My heart does plead To leave me be Let me be freed But no matter how I seem to cry This love won’t leave This love won’t die
Painful Shade Stop taunting me Go back to death Where you should be
Moving this post (since I still like it a lot ><) To the fanfic section, so ignore little ol me
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I know love will find a way Anywhere I go, I'm home If you are there beside me Like dark turning into day Somehow we'll come through Now that I've found you Love will find a way
It was late, very late. And yet there was one person still walking about the grounds. Roan was returning from the Lake where she had been not a half hour before. Her red cloak trailed behind her and her hazel eyes were set forward as she made her way towards the Arch, the entrance to her school. Her shoulders were slumped and her demeanor was unsettled, like she was uneasy about something. Every few moments she would peer over her shoulder, as if she was watching to make sure nobody was following her. It wasn’t like Roan was worried, she had called for Romulus down at the Lake after he had sped away, because he had brought something up and then practically fled. She wanted clarification, and…after hearing some of the things he last said, the need for her to talk now was in her. Damn him, damn him to hell. She thought as she turned her head forward again, knowing she would be uneasy until she could talk to the Vampire again, and when would that be?
Thoughts had been plaguing her that night, and they were still there in her mind as she walked up the path towards the school, made worse by her previous conversation. Roan had every right to hate Romulus for what he did, for what he tricked into taking from her, for the pain he had caused. But why was it that she felt a little bit of pity for the vampire? Was it because she knew she snapped at him and yelled and told him to leave her when at least a tiny part of him still cared a bit? He had obviously cared enough to warn her about something that was going to happen in the future, something that was apparently going to be bad. And wasn’t that what she was looking for, someone who cared? Obviously she wasn’t looking for it in Romulus, and never would again after what he did, but still it brought up that question.
Was she absent of that kind of emotion because she chased it away?
Was it because she never gave it a chance?
I was so afraid Now I realize Love is never wrong And so it never dies There's a perfect world Shining in your eyes And if only they could feel it, too The happiness I feel with you
She find herself at the great Stone Arch that signaled the entrance to the school. Snow was falling now, and there was wind. Roan looked up at the great University, not really wanting to enter it right now and go to bed as she should. As she was no longer a Prefect, she did not have the right to stay out of grounds after hours. But for someone to punish her…she wouldn’t care. Her back slid down against the stone of the arch as she sat down, on her cloak, leaning her head against the structure. A few brown locks obstructed her vision, and she brushed them away idly as she looked up into the falling snow. It fell about the red fabric of her cloak and dotted it before fading into nothing, and was completely invisible on her white nightgown. The moon was bright that night, casting enough light that she didn’t need her fire anymore.
Maybe things are just catching up with you Roan. She thought to herself with a sigh, bundling her cloak closer to her cold form, now looking at the ground where the snow was falling. You know your past has that uncanny way of stabbing you in the back as many times as it can. Her mind was gone from the whole Fenris issue, Roan had given up going after him even before the War. It wasn’t like she would just go chasing after him anymore, right? Her breath came out as a cold fog as she took a deep breath and gave herself a small smile. Since when did you give up on anything there girly? She thought to herself with a bit of confidence.
You don’t give up on fights, why give up on love? Just because you have one traumatic experience in your past doesn’t mean you aren’t going to find love in your future. It’s the holidays, right? The time for new resolutions and those loving ties, if anytime there is for this, now is it. Maybe you didn’t find it before…because you just weren’t looking for it. Roan thought wistfully as she looked up at the sky again, the snow that was settling in her brown hair and on her cloak making her look like some angel in the moonlight, even though she was anything but. “Maybe.” She just said aloud quietly, not really wanting to go back to school still, and didn’t know how long it would be until she did, maybe she would stay out all night.
She still wanted to think.
She still wanted to dream.
At least before she had to go back to harsh reality.
Like dark turning into day Somehow we'll come through Now that I've found you Love will find a way I know love will find a way
If this is to end in fire Then we shall all burn together Watch the flames climb high into the night
Okay, I needed to rant…and I couldn’t get it to fit into a Poem because there isn’t much that rhymes well with ACT and SAT and AP exams -.- And if I do not rant in some way or another…I am going to scream.
So, my dad just got home today from a trip…whup de do. Beforehand he was bugging me and bugging me to get test dates for the SAT. So I finally get the chance to go and get the dates from my counselor, and she tells me that we don’t take the SAT at our school, we take the ACT. And she explains that most all colleges accept the ACT which is why we take that one and not the SAT. So I get a nice packet with extra test dates for the ACT and everything and bring it home to my mom.
At the same time of getting dates, I got a copy of my transcript and found out that there was a grade change needed on there because of a class that I retook in my Sophomore year. My counselor happily obliged and got me a new copy of my transcript that day. It ended up with the grade change that I went up 30 in the class ranking (to be 34 out of 470) and my cumulative GPA went up .2 to be 3.9 something.
So it was all: YAY!
That same day we also registered for Senior year classes.
So anyways, my dad comes home today from his trip and looks at the ACT packet and doesn’t say anything at first. I come down, actually happy to see him for once and start talking about the grade change because that was so awesome, made me so happy. He doesn’t say a word, he just asks “Did you get dates for the SAT?”
And I gave him this blank stare and explained that our school doesn’t take the SAT, we take the ACT and I got him dates and registration info for that. Oh, he doesn’t care. He wants to know exactly why I am not taking the SAT and such, and gets all angry and is now going to talk to my counselor.
I got angry and went upstairs and he called me down later and explained he ‘isnt angry with me’ but he is going to have me take the SAT anyways. And gave me the whole speech of ‘I never took the SAT, I never got the scores, I want you to have them’ and the ‘I want you to go to college, you are going to college no matter what’.
No matter the fact that I have enough exams to worry about registering for and taking and prepping for anyways, noooo.
No matter that all these exams and tests fall in the busiest time of my karate year when it comes to tournament and tournament prep.
No matter that I am doing all I can to get into college anyways such as doubling up on math next year and taking a fucking AP Biology class when I really don’t want to take an AP science. I am also taking AP exams to get those extra credits for them, so that they don’t have to pay for me to take classes, I’ll already have the credits! I am also looking into taking classes at the local community college that count as both High School and College credit for gods sake! I don’t need more exams!!!! I have enough of those god damn things!!!
Ugh, I am so frustrated! He doesn’t care about what I care about, no, he just has his own agenda and such. Not a single congratz about the fact I jumped from being in the top 15% to being in the top 10% of my class, which is huge for me! Not a single congratz on the fact that I went from a 3.7 to a 3.9 and am so close to breaking a 4.0 on my cumulative GPA, the one colleges look at!
It’s so frustrating! It’s like I cant do enough for him, it’s just not enough.
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!
/RANT!!!
If this is to end in fire Then we shall all burn together Watch the flames climb high into the night
Yikes. Have you told your dad, in not so many words, to get stuffed and that it has nothing to do with him? Or would you like me to hit him with an ACME 20t anvil from a great height until little roadrunners jog around his head?
And I have plenty of time some days, and not so much other days. To tell the truth, I don't do much of my homework here at home, I do a lot at school actually at my lunch and stuff. Things like papers, US His. outlines, projects, and other things are done at home...unless I get off my lazy behind and actually do some work at home.
EDIT: And Sylph...I would love that >< But sadly not possible
Teagan Offline: This board is full of nostalgia.
Aug 22, 2020 8:39:09 GMT -5
Missing the old MH: gotta say missing when MH and all that was around.
Nov 6, 2019 0:02:30 GMT -5
Willow_lazy: why tf are there 400 posts about adidas
Sept 6, 2018 17:35:57 GMT -5
Azrael: I'm not hard to find, since I'm the only one there who goes by "Azzy", I'm pretty sure. XD
Feb 10, 2018 16:44:41 GMT -5
Azrael: Dunno if anyone still pops by here from time to time, but if any of you mofos do and still feel like gettin' yo nerd on, I've been hanging around this here place a bunch recently: www.roleplayerguild.com/
Feb 10, 2018 16:44:10 GMT -5
Azrael: hold onto your pantaloons
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