Post by Professor O'Conner on Feb 13, 2009 18:19:24 GMT -5
This is a brain child I had when I was mad at Ben and deleted the evil character I made because it was his idea – I was trying to punish him. I knew it was in my best interest to find another way to confront my shadow self – the part of everyone that encourages you to do wrong and reviles in anger and hate. I got the idea to have a discourse with myself about certain topics but I couldn't decided what topics would do. Most of the ones I wanted to do would -in my opinion- make you guys dislike me even more that you might now. However I found the solution when I picked up my Pronoia book by Rob Brezsny. Of course, I thought, pronoia is the perfect subject! It will also help people understand pronoia a bit more in the proses! No one can get mad at my shadow for being paranoid because most people in the WORLD are paranoid on some level and most think it is normal.
Thus, the first installment of my 'An Argument with Myself' series was born. Please enjoy with an open mind.
Definition of Pronoia: Pronoia is the antidote for paranoia. It's the understanding that the universe is fundamentally friendly. It's a mode of training your senses and intellect so you're able to perceive the fact that life always gives you exactly what you need when you need it.
Definition of Paranoia: In popular terminology, a “paranoid” personality is characterized by suspicion and distrust of others; a tendency to look for hidden meaning behind other people's actions; argumentativeness; complaining; low tolerance for criticism; and a constant display of one's own talents, accomplishments, independence, and rationality.
AJRO will be discussing Pronoia
ERW will argue about Paranoia
AJRO: I love Pronoia!
ERW: * rolls eyes *
AJRO: It makes me feel good to not dwell on the bad things that happen to me . . .
ERW: * interrupts * A Ton of bad things happen to me! How can I not dwell on them? Nothing good ever happens!
AJRO: You think so huh?
ERW: I know so! * folds arms and rolls eyes *
AJRO: Bet you I can name 10 good things that happened today!
ERW: Ha! Your on!
AJRO: Ok, Today I was able to eat the rest of my Ruben pennini – no one ate it on me in the night!
Today I am dedicating to writing and reading only and I am therefore able to write this discourse.
Today I started reading my Aura Reading for Beginners book and in it it said it would be easy to read them, and that trying too hard would make me not see them . . . so that means I don't have to kill myself studying!
ERW: Your homework is due next mouth and you haven't started it!
AJRO: Hush it's my turn! Today because it is writing and reading day I will be able to work some more on my homework witch I did so start.
Today – how many is that? Four? Ok this is the fifth - * looks at clock * Today my Life Coach is late so I can keep working on this and don't have to get dressed yet!
Today both my land line and my cell phone are working – a few days ago my land line wasn't working.
Today I live with MB in her real house, with her real family – AND they love me for ME, not for what they want me to be.
Today I have 6 pictures and 11 scarves at the gallery posed to sell and make me money, oh!
Today I don't have to work at the gallery! I can devote my day to my reading and writing as I had planned.
Last one – Today it is warmer than it has been, but not warm enough for bugs yet! I maybe told to take a walk or a bike ride, but if I am interrupted at least it won't be too cold to go out!
ERW: * roll eyes *
AJRO: I can go on . . .
ERW: Suuuuuuuuuure, half that stuff isn't even real 'good things' OR things that happened today!
AJRO: Good things don't have to be monumental. A lot of good stuff happens and people just don't notice or take it for granted. It is important to be mindful and aware of all the good things that happen – big or small.
ERW: Your lame. What about on FFU or on SL? Bet you can't name 10 good things that happened there! In both games you have had a disastrous week!
AJRO: * gleam in her eyes * Wanna bet?
ERW: Yeah – NO! Not if your gonna cheat!
AJRO: You know, even bad things that happen are really just 'Painful Blessings' – things that need to happen so that we appreciate the pleasant Blessing that happen. There is no Good without Evil.
ERW: Did you just Quote Rob Brezsny and Evil Tim?
AJRO: Yes, but Tim isn't evil.
ERW: Ok, now I know your cracked.
AJRO:
ERW: I really don't care what Jacob says, Tim has been nothing but MEAN. He gives you the title of Prefect so you'll stay and put up with the crap!
AJRO: Well I DO believe Jacob, however, anything I believe I also reserve the right not to believe. Besides Tim is one of those people from whom Painful Blessings come from. Even Julie admits he could be a great Lawyer.
ERW: * rolls eyes *
AJRO: Besides this isn't about FFU or it's admins, it's about Pronoia . . .
ERW: Which is stupid . . .
AJRO: . . . so please stay on topic. HEY, Pronoia isn't stupid - Since when do you agree with Tim anyway?
ERW: Ooooooooooo, stay on topic! * sticks tongue out at AJRO *
AJRO: YUK YUK YUK YUK YUK YUK YUK, ok ok. What is so stupid about being thankful for all blessings I have and knowing that the whole world is conspiring to shower me with them?
ERW: The world is NOT showering anyone with anything CLOSE to a blessing! The world is showering me with hardship and meanness and troubles. For example -because I know you are fond of those- everyone keeps telling me I am a grown-up. If I were a grown-up, I wouldn't be on FFU or Maple Story or anything! I'd only be able to stay on Second life! And I'd have to write stupid grown-up romance novels, instead of fan fiction and kids fantasy novels! YOU CAN'T BE A GROWN UP AND BE 'IN TUNE' WITH KIDS!!!!!!!!!!!!
AJRO: I agree with that last part completely. People who don't understand about staying young at heart and trying your best to ignore you ageing body don't realize how much of a insult it is to be told 'no matter what you do, you're an adult'. As a Pronoiac I (try to) realize that those people do have a purpose in my life. Perhaps they are there to bring me back to earth and remind me that my body IS aging and I will have to work hard to keep it young as my ideals. Maybe they are there to be my opponents and critics – believe it or not you need opponents as much as you need proponents and supporters.
ERW: I have had my fill for opponents and critics. I would be happy if I never had to deal with a single one ever again.
AJRO: I wouldn't.
ERW: EXCUSE ME!?
AJRO: If I never had another critic ever, the book I am writing would be published and made into a movie and millions of people would love it and no one would make a fan fictions about it ever because they all would think it was perfect.
ERW: Um . . . that's what I want.
AJRO: Really? Are you sure?
ERW: YES!
AJRO: I don't want that. I want my book to succeed but if I had no critics, no one would be there to tell me if I made a mistake. No one would be able to tell me why they liked it and why they didn't and they'd never be able to help me fix it to be the best writing it can be. I do want to be famous and have a lot of people love my work but critics are necessary. Fan fic writers are necessary – they give you great ideas for what will and won't work for your next book. If you have them count your blessings I say.
ERW: * O.O *
AJRO: * Smiles * Now you see what I mean?
ERW: Your nuts. Who CARES if it isn't the best work?
AJRO: I do. I don't want historians of fiction saying years from now that I was a bubblegum book writer. As much as I want to be a hit, I also want to be a instant classic. I may want to take J. K.'s Fan base but I also want to have earned it.
ERW: * -__- * You suck.
AJRO: * O.O * Why?
ERW: What ever happened to “I deserve the world on a silver platter!”?
AJRO: That was your shtick.
ERW: I AM RIGHT! After all that is happened I DESERVE F*** TWO worlds!
AJRO: I am not trying to take away what has happened. No one deserves what happened to me.
ERW: I can name TEN people who do deserve ever F***ing second of it!
AJRO: . . . . .
ERW: * folds arms and frowns menacingly *
AJRO: * HUGS *
ERW: Eep!
AJRO: I love you.
ERW: No you don't!
AJRO: I am trying, because I know somehow you are needed. I know if I didn't have you . . . I wouldn't be able to be the me I am today. You helped me find Pronoia.
ERW: Yeah? Well . . . you smell!
AJRO: * smiles and Pats ERW's head*
ERW: Leave me alone!
AJRO: Ok
Does that give you a better idea of Pronoia? If not, please leave a comment. If it gives you a better idea of how far I have come, Please leave a comment. In fact, if you read this please leave a comment Period. Thanks.
Oh and any topic ideas for next time will be appreciated. If you want me to delve further into Pronoia please feel free to say so. DERP!
Thus, the first installment of my 'An Argument with Myself' series was born. Please enjoy with an open mind.
Definition of Pronoia: Pronoia is the antidote for paranoia. It's the understanding that the universe is fundamentally friendly. It's a mode of training your senses and intellect so you're able to perceive the fact that life always gives you exactly what you need when you need it.
Definition of Paranoia: In popular terminology, a “paranoid” personality is characterized by suspicion and distrust of others; a tendency to look for hidden meaning behind other people's actions; argumentativeness; complaining; low tolerance for criticism; and a constant display of one's own talents, accomplishments, independence, and rationality.
AJRO will be discussing Pronoia
ERW will argue about Paranoia
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AJRO: I love Pronoia!
ERW: * rolls eyes *
AJRO: It makes me feel good to not dwell on the bad things that happen to me . . .
ERW: * interrupts * A Ton of bad things happen to me! How can I not dwell on them? Nothing good ever happens!
AJRO: You think so huh?
ERW: I know so! * folds arms and rolls eyes *
AJRO: Bet you I can name 10 good things that happened today!
ERW: Ha! Your on!
AJRO: Ok, Today I was able to eat the rest of my Ruben pennini – no one ate it on me in the night!
Today I am dedicating to writing and reading only and I am therefore able to write this discourse.
Today I started reading my Aura Reading for Beginners book and in it it said it would be easy to read them, and that trying too hard would make me not see them . . . so that means I don't have to kill myself studying!
ERW: Your homework is due next mouth and you haven't started it!
AJRO: Hush it's my turn! Today because it is writing and reading day I will be able to work some more on my homework witch I did so start.
Today – how many is that? Four? Ok this is the fifth - * looks at clock * Today my Life Coach is late so I can keep working on this and don't have to get dressed yet!
Today both my land line and my cell phone are working – a few days ago my land line wasn't working.
Today I live with MB in her real house, with her real family – AND they love me for ME, not for what they want me to be.
Today I have 6 pictures and 11 scarves at the gallery posed to sell and make me money, oh!
Today I don't have to work at the gallery! I can devote my day to my reading and writing as I had planned.
Last one – Today it is warmer than it has been, but not warm enough for bugs yet! I maybe told to take a walk or a bike ride, but if I am interrupted at least it won't be too cold to go out!
ERW: * roll eyes *
AJRO: I can go on . . .
ERW: Suuuuuuuuuure, half that stuff isn't even real 'good things' OR things that happened today!
AJRO: Good things don't have to be monumental. A lot of good stuff happens and people just don't notice or take it for granted. It is important to be mindful and aware of all the good things that happen – big or small.
ERW: Your lame. What about on FFU or on SL? Bet you can't name 10 good things that happened there! In both games you have had a disastrous week!
AJRO: * gleam in her eyes * Wanna bet?
ERW: Yeah – NO! Not if your gonna cheat!
AJRO: You know, even bad things that happen are really just 'Painful Blessings' – things that need to happen so that we appreciate the pleasant Blessing that happen. There is no Good without Evil.
ERW: Did you just Quote Rob Brezsny and Evil Tim?
AJRO: Yes, but Tim isn't evil.
ERW: Ok, now I know your cracked.
AJRO:
ERW: I really don't care what Jacob says, Tim has been nothing but MEAN. He gives you the title of Prefect so you'll stay and put up with the crap!
AJRO: Well I DO believe Jacob, however, anything I believe I also reserve the right not to believe. Besides Tim is one of those people from whom Painful Blessings come from. Even Julie admits he could be a great Lawyer.
ERW: * rolls eyes *
AJRO: Besides this isn't about FFU or it's admins, it's about Pronoia . . .
ERW: Which is stupid . . .
AJRO: . . . so please stay on topic. HEY, Pronoia isn't stupid - Since when do you agree with Tim anyway?
ERW: Ooooooooooo, stay on topic! * sticks tongue out at AJRO *
AJRO: YUK YUK YUK YUK YUK YUK YUK, ok ok. What is so stupid about being thankful for all blessings I have and knowing that the whole world is conspiring to shower me with them?
ERW: The world is NOT showering anyone with anything CLOSE to a blessing! The world is showering me with hardship and meanness and troubles. For example -because I know you are fond of those- everyone keeps telling me I am a grown-up. If I were a grown-up, I wouldn't be on FFU or Maple Story or anything! I'd only be able to stay on Second life! And I'd have to write stupid grown-up romance novels, instead of fan fiction and kids fantasy novels! YOU CAN'T BE A GROWN UP AND BE 'IN TUNE' WITH KIDS!!!!!!!!!!!!
AJRO: I agree with that last part completely. People who don't understand about staying young at heart and trying your best to ignore you ageing body don't realize how much of a insult it is to be told 'no matter what you do, you're an adult'. As a Pronoiac I (try to) realize that those people do have a purpose in my life. Perhaps they are there to bring me back to earth and remind me that my body IS aging and I will have to work hard to keep it young as my ideals. Maybe they are there to be my opponents and critics – believe it or not you need opponents as much as you need proponents and supporters.
ERW: I have had my fill for opponents and critics. I would be happy if I never had to deal with a single one ever again.
AJRO: I wouldn't.
ERW: EXCUSE ME!?
AJRO: If I never had another critic ever, the book I am writing would be published and made into a movie and millions of people would love it and no one would make a fan fictions about it ever because they all would think it was perfect.
ERW: Um . . . that's what I want.
AJRO: Really? Are you sure?
ERW: YES!
AJRO: I don't want that. I want my book to succeed but if I had no critics, no one would be there to tell me if I made a mistake. No one would be able to tell me why they liked it and why they didn't and they'd never be able to help me fix it to be the best writing it can be. I do want to be famous and have a lot of people love my work but critics are necessary. Fan fic writers are necessary – they give you great ideas for what will and won't work for your next book. If you have them count your blessings I say.
ERW: * O.O *
AJRO: * Smiles * Now you see what I mean?
ERW: Your nuts. Who CARES if it isn't the best work?
AJRO: I do. I don't want historians of fiction saying years from now that I was a bubblegum book writer. As much as I want to be a hit, I also want to be a instant classic. I may want to take J. K.'s Fan base but I also want to have earned it.
ERW: * -__- * You suck.
AJRO: * O.O * Why?
ERW: What ever happened to “I deserve the world on a silver platter!”?
AJRO: That was your shtick.
ERW: I AM RIGHT! After all that is happened I DESERVE F*** TWO worlds!
AJRO: I am not trying to take away what has happened. No one deserves what happened to me.
ERW: I can name TEN people who do deserve ever F***ing second of it!
AJRO: . . . . .
ERW: * folds arms and frowns menacingly *
AJRO: * HUGS *
ERW: Eep!
AJRO: I love you.
ERW: No you don't!
AJRO: I am trying, because I know somehow you are needed. I know if I didn't have you . . . I wouldn't be able to be the me I am today. You helped me find Pronoia.
ERW: Yeah? Well . . . you smell!
AJRO: * smiles and Pats ERW's head*
ERW: Leave me alone!
AJRO: Ok
Does that give you a better idea of Pronoia? If not, please leave a comment. If it gives you a better idea of how far I have come, Please leave a comment. In fact, if you read this please leave a comment Period. Thanks.
Oh and any topic ideas for next time will be appreciated. If you want me to delve further into Pronoia please feel free to say so. DERP!